So why is the name of this page “Just My Past Self?”
This past year, I’ve been thinking a lot about my past self. I’ve grown tremendously, and a lot of that has to do with assessing my actions in the past. Whenever I’d read old DMs, or think about the actions I’ve done, I used to blame my past self or call myself cringe, and I wished that I had the power to turn back time so I could take back things that I’ve said.
As I’ve grown, though, I’ve learned to have more empathy for my past self. I was doing the best with what I had, and though sometimes I feel like everything is wrong with my past self and the decisions that I’ve made. Whether it be not starting writing earlier, or quitting piano, or the people I’ve gotten involved with, there’s a lot I might’ve done differently now. But I can’t turn back time.
Even when my values have drastically shifted, I still love the person I was. Though I wasn’t perfect, I was just my past self.